Friday, 29 June 2012

Another new limit made, I've just got back from being away working since Tuesday - I did a whole day in the office on Tuesday, travelled up to Norfolk (about an hour away) Set up a trade stand, then worked 8 - 6pm on Weds and again yesterday, packed down, and came home - got home around 10.30pm. 


AND I MANAGED :)


Just wanting to share my success! 


Last day at the play area tomorrow, so i'll be down to one job over the summer, giving me more time to relax and prepare for third year of uni. 
So so so happy i'm being able to do what I want and work on my career. 


:) 

Sunday, 24 June 2012

Doing well..and I hope to continue to do well.

I've had a manic couple of weeks with my new job, so gave myself strict instructions on how to rest and think about it all, so far so good. 

It is now starting to take its toll and I have to go away to work this week, just holding on at the moment and carrying on with positive thoughts; i'm so lucky to be able to work and get to where I want in life, for others its harder and sometimes takes longer..

Friday, 15 June 2012

For my new followers who haven't been with me through this year..this is why passing my second year of university is so important. 


I was so ill before Christmas, my attendance was so poor, I think that if I was on any other course - I would of been asked to leave. But thankfully I got the support I needed and was told to rest and take each day at a time. 


I didn't submit any assignments in the first semester (sept - jan) and so was extremely behind. I got given many choices, most of which advised me to 'stop and start again in Sept 2012!' That meant being a year behind all my course mates and taking four years instead of three to complete my degree. Something within me told me not to give up, even though by this time I had two semesters work to complete in one. Which was just over four months to do a whole years worth of assignments. What would you of done? 


Anyway, I got granted mitigating circumstances which gave me the time I needed to complete my assignments (considering all my health stays stable) They were giving me the support I needed but it was still down to me. 


I took each day at a time, some days I would stare at my laptop and hardly write a sentence, others I would be able to bash out the best part of a 3,000 word essay! It really was hit and miss, I never thought through doing all of that, I would get there. It seemed never ending, but something within me kept me going, I wasn't going to admit defeat, I couldn't.


My attendance was still poor through the second semester, but I did manage a full week at university, once. Haha! But I still did it. There are some people that miss uni because they are hungover or just can't be bothered, at least they knew mine was a real reason! Everyone had also got their first semester results, so they knew what to work towards, I on the other hand, hadn't handed anything in so didn't get results, therefore didn't know if my work would make the grades!


As I got my results today it is obvious that I managed to get all my assignments in, slowly my work load decreased day by day and I managed to see the end. Upon handing in my last assignment of year two I couldn't believe it! I had done it! 


This year was a massive test to me and I did so nearly give up, but here I am sitting here with my results in front of me!! 


Never give up people, if you want it - there is a way to get it


x0x

Monday, 11 June 2012

Watch out, this is going to be a big one! 


A big update that is..haha! 


Funny aren't I..


Just wanted to start by telling you that i've just got back from possibly the best dance class this year, I managed it ALL, didn't sit out for ANY of it, no funny turns and no second thoughts, I did it ALL, even the pirouettes, in both directions :) eeeeeeee! I was buzzing all the way home!


Anyway, so I meant to blog last week as I wasn't as happy as I am now, I was down and completely fed up! It all started with a NASTY sickness bug (sorry, this blog will have a lot of caps!) in which I was completely out of action all day, couldn't stand up by myself, didn't eat all day and couldn't even lift a cup to my mouth for a drink - it was awful! The only thing that kept me sane was the Jubilee coverage on TV, I watched a little - fell asleep, woke up and watching some more - Sky + is brill! ;) 


I had to go into the office on Wednesday, of which I just broke down completely, I HATE crying as it just exhausts me more but better out than in I suppose. This for me I think was a turning point, I realised that I can't go on like this and something needed to be done. Anyway, I won't tell you what I thought to do, I will tell you what I have done 


- I have started taking my vitamins again
- I have researched into getting a lightbox, they look quite worthwhile but they are quite expensive so I've ordered a lightbulb that has the same effect which is in my bedroom light as we speak :) Not using it loads because i'm not always home but little bits at a time, so we shall see how that goes.
- I've also (now this sounds funny) but put a lot of people straight on my facebook, I was always worried about what people would think if I had to cancel on them or not do something, which wasn't helping me really so now people know i'm ill, if they want to know whats wrong, they can ask me. Of which some did, and they were nothing but nice to me & I got lots of nice messages from those who already knew too, not sure what I was worried about :) 
- I'm being sensible and only doing ballet for now, stopping tap until I'm better, I was struggling too much - at least this way I can concentrate on Ballet now and get stronger :) 
- I'm going to continue to think of MYSELF, it's time to be selfish! 


I can tell you....so far so good! 
I can promise you that I will carry this on and hopefully get stronger by the day! 
I want to let you all out there know, those that are struggling 
you will get there
I've started to accept small things as big achievements, so even if it something small that you've done today that you didn't do yesterday then, well done you! 
I've been up and down so so much in the last year, I wouldn't of even thought I would of been how I have, but it just goes to show sometimes you can't help how it affects you.


The main thing is don't give up! 


Thank you for listening to me, always.
Lots of love and gentle hugs :) 
Charlotte